Since giving birth to my first child, what seems like a thousand years ago now, the world has changed so much it’s completely unrecognisable in so many ways. Change being the only constant, I’m pretty comfortable with that but I must say I’m not exactly thrilled about every change I’ve experienced.
I feel exceedingly privileged to have beared witness to so much evolution, and to have been able to move and grow along with many of those changes.
I know deep within my soul what we as humans are capable of. I know that our bodies and minds are wise and magical, with capabilities far beyond those we can physically see.
Once I became a mum, like any mum, my most powerful instinct was to love, nurture and protect my baby from harm.
I researched the hell out of everything I did as a new mum, as a herbalist I’d studied food as medicine with one of the most knowledgeable and magical wizards of health and herbalism I’ve ever known, an opportunity I’ll be forever grateful for.
The internet wasn’t the fully developed monster it is today, social media hadn’t been invented yet so it was pretty easy to block out any external noise and focus on my own knowing, along with researching the actual truth. I’m incredibly appreciative of the fact that the vast majority of my learnings came from actual experience, books, intuition and my tutors.
But one of my superpowers was actually my mum.
She intuitively knew about energy and spoke often of the vibration of things and people. Which is one of the reasons she was such a gifted numerologist.
She made the numbers sing.
And her charts illuminated pathways for so many people.
Magic of numerology
Perhaps unsurprisingly her specialisation was relationships. Her own childhood was one of trauma, disconnection and loss, numerology helped her make sense of that. She developed a deep understanding of why some relationships are easy and others take a bit more work.
She also helped shape my learnings in that field, understanding the numerology blueprints of my children has been absolutely invaluable to me as a parent, especially when navigating those minefields of the teenage years. Understanding my children’s currency and communication languages gave me incredible insights.
Mum’s depth of knowledge in the field of numerology was particularly sought out for business, when she did the charts for businesses and their owners she could ‘see’ the picture. As she developed the chart the numbers would ‘dance’ for her on the page.
My mum was incredibly intuitive and absolutely 100% committed to finding what sat behind the headlines. She was a truth seeker who knew full well that living your own truth is the key. With many of her formative years spent in a Catholic orphanage in the bad old days, she learned that lesson first hand.
She had experienced unbelievable cruelty and deep trauma.
She also did the research to back up some of what she ‘knew’ and spent many many hours at the local library, hunting for information. Information that was slowly but surely being buried beneath headlines as the world evolved.
It was not unusual for my mum to arrive at my doorstep with reams of paper filled with information from case studies she’d found at the library and printed out for me to read. This was the 80s, I’d had my first baby and and what I call the ‘slow burn’ was in process.
Social conditioning
Social conditioning was having a very real impact. If you took a few steps back you could see it, nicely disguised as being a good mum, a caring parent, a compliant person. At that time technology hadn’t evolved enough to ensure easy control just yet, but it was coming.
The truth is nobody will ever care about you, your health or your money as much as you do, so it’s in your best interest to educate yourself on those things that matter to you so you can look after yourself and your loved ones.
It’s often said that the little things in life are actually the big things and when I look back over those days I realise that some of those little things my mum taught me are the big things.
My mum passed away many years ago, very appropriately on Mothers Day and while there are many things I am grateful to her for, what I seem to lean on and appreciate the most these days is her innate wisdom.
Her parenting style helped me to honour and have appreciation for my own inner wisdom.